Flashback to Freedom

On my days off when I don’t have any errands to run my outfit is more relaxed. Today I’m going to wear a big sloppy shirt and comfy shorts.

I found the shirt in a stack of shirts in my closet and realized it needed to be ironed because it was very wrinkled and today (I don’t know why) the wrinkles would have bothered me. So my first chore before getting dressed was ironing the wrinkles out of the shirt. I’m not good at ironing but I was determined to see if I could eliminate more wrinkles than I added.

While ironing the shirt I had a flashback to many years ago when my uncle gave me a shirt. My sister and I were visiting him-for what reason I don’t recall. Then my flashback went back a little further to my childhood.

I had two uncles that I thought didn’t like me. I never could come up with the reason why in my head but that’s what I felt. I did think one uncle liked me a little more than the other.

While ironing the shirt I did remembered the uncle that I thought didn’t like me the most gave me a shirt when I was visiting and he also released my inheritance his twin brother left me when he passed away. I felt a little better.

As I finished ironing I looked at the logo on front of the shirt and realized the shirt wasn’t the one my uncle gave me. It was a shirt I received from a vendor who visited my job. That gave me a chuckle when I also remembered the shirts were two different colors.

It’s interesting how things from the past show up unexpectedly that possibly need to be dealt with. I believe I needed to deal with that issue. I dealt with that issue and felt better but wish I had an opportunity to discuss my feelings with him before he passed away.

So from now on I’m going to keep a check on my feelings and emotions and if I feel some way I’m going to discuss my feelings so I won’t be carrying them around many years like I have with these.

Do you have feelings about your relationship with someone that need to be discussed so you can be set free and you can free the person? If you do please deal with them immediately.

One Connected Heart

The moment I laid eyes on you

I knew you were my forever love

My heart skipped gleefully

To rest upon your heart

That was the beginning

A fresh exciting start

Of love intertwining

Two young hearts.

Years have come and gone

My heart still beats for you

The bond is stronger now

Than when I first laid eyes on you.

No one on earth

Can tear us apart

Because what we share

Is one connected heart.

Her Last Breath

She clawed her way upon his chest

The pain that wracked her body stole her rest

Medication dulled the pain but never completely took it away

In and out of consciousness, delirious to her surroundings

In her weakness she pulled on his strength 

Because she had none of her own

Tears streaming down his cheeks, through his beard, onto her hair

Thoughts of losing the love of his life was more than he could bear

I have to be strong for her no matter what the outcome is

Lord give us a miracle and let this nightmare end

Her breathing was so shallow he checked to see

If she was still with him or moved on to eternity

Pulling her closer to him to breathe for her once more

A flashback of the years gone by

When everything was great

The memories will be tucked away

In the heart that beats for her

My heart will always beat for you

With every breath I take

Your smile, the twinkle in your eyes 

Our wonderful life together 

Can never be replaced

As she drew her last breath

He whispered in her ear

I’ll always love you

Forever

#Emmanism

There comes a day in just about everyone’s life when they need to distance themselves from people they let in. Through trial and error, heartache and pain they realize the relationship is not working no matter what they do.

Every once in a while I create an Emmanism, which is a little saying or word of wisdom. It may even turn into mini advice which probably no one takes it seriously. Twenty-two hours ago I wrote an Emmanism and want to share it.

Sometimes you have to tell someone they are a ‘WAS’ in your life. #Emmanism

A nice way to tell them bye, bye . . . maybe, maybe not.