Flashback to Freedom

On my days off when I don’t have any errands to run my outfit is more relaxed. Today I’m going to wear a big sloppy shirt and comfy shorts.

I found the shirt in a stack of shirts in my closet and realized it needed to be ironed because it was very wrinkled and today (I don’t know why) the wrinkles would have bothered me. So my first chore before getting dressed was ironing the wrinkles out of the shirt. I’m not good at ironing but I was determined to see if I could eliminate more wrinkles than I added.

While ironing the shirt I had a flashback to many years ago when my uncle gave me a shirt. My sister and I were visiting him-for what reason I don’t recall. Then my flashback went back a little further to my childhood.

I had two uncles that I thought didn’t like me. I never could come up with the reason why in my head but that’s what I felt. I did think one uncle liked me a little more than the other.

While ironing the shirt I did remembered the uncle that I thought didn’t like me the most gave me a shirt when I was visiting and he also released my inheritance his twin brother left me when he passed away. I felt a little better.

As I finished ironing I looked at the logo on front of the shirt and realized the shirt wasn’t the one my uncle gave me. It was a shirt I received from a vendor who visited my job. That gave me a chuckle when I also remembered the shirts were two different colors.

It’s interesting how things from the past show up unexpectedly that possibly need to be dealt with. I believe I needed to deal with that issue. I dealt with that issue and felt better but wish I had an opportunity to discuss my feelings with him before he passed away.

So from now on I’m going to keep a check on my feelings and emotions and if I feel some way I’m going to discuss my feelings so I won’t be carrying them around many years like I have with these.

Do you have feelings about your relationship with someone that need to be discussed so you can be set free and you can free the person? If you do please deal with them immediately.

WHAT ABOUT ME

Busy listening

Giving counseling

Drying tears

Encouraging words

Holding hands

Hugging tight

Helping those

Morning, noon and night

Drained to the core

Words-there’s no more

Energy is spent

Body hard hit

Along with the mind

Phone always ringing

Mostly sobbing

No singing

What do you think

What should I do

Never how are you doing

Is life treating you well

Is there anything I can do

Can we talk about you

I’m here for you day or night.

Sitting before the Lord

Reevaluating my life

Not seeing progress

Nor my prayers answered

I cried out from

The depth of my soul

What about me

What about me Lord

What about me

I don’t see what I prayed for

Why no one cares to listen to me

Ask me hard questions

That make me think

Receive a hug I didn’t give

A tissue to wipe away my tears

What about me

What about me Lord

Will it ever be my time?

My Perceptions

A definition of perception is the ability to see, hear,
or become aware of something through the senses.

Pain
Pain can be physical or emotional. Physical pain can be in a particular part of your body or all over. Emotional pain can make you think your heart is broken and you can’t go on. It some times hurt worse than physical pain.
Any pain you have can be eradicated by The Healer.

Bowling
Bowling is a spiritual game. The pins are like problems that won’t go away. They keep standing when they should have fallen. In order to bring them down don’t rush them, but with a pause, listen for a strategy and move forward. You win.

Writing
In writing you get freedom. You can use your wildest imagination that can be entertaining to the reader. You can tell your story that can set a person free. If you have a mandate to write stop putting it off and get to it. Satisfaction of completion can be a wonderful thing.

Listening
Listening is a hard thing to do. You can start listening to someone but can go off the beaten path into your own world by just one word that was spoken. Everyone who wants you to listen don’t always want a response. They only want a listener. Do them and yourself a favor-listen.

Birds
Birds are interesting to watch. Their ways resemble people. One minute they are working together and the next they are fighting. Fluttering and flapping their wing and squawking remind me of many people I’ve come in contact with over the years. They fly away never to be seen again. With people that may not happen.

A Quiet Day

Today has been a quiet day. I read my devotions and scripture references that followed. I reflected on the goodness of God and how He is in complete control no matter how much the news is trying to convince us otherwise. God’s peace is covering me and I’m thankful for that.

I haven’t turned the television or music on. My thoughts are the loudest noise I hear while I anticipate hearing from God concerning the direction I’m to go.

The last week I’ve had work done in my home. A lot of things that have been taken down and moved need to be replaced. One thing I can say for sure that most things will not end up in the same place. Just maybe that is a good thing. I will have a place that will look new even though it’s only been rearranged. Some things will not reappear. Some pieces will be given away and some will be thrown away. It’s a new day.

That is how I’m thinking about the way I want my life to be when we become free birds again. I’m not interest in adding every single thing I use to do back into my life. I enjoy the quiet days – days I either do something or do nothing. I work on projects I didn’t have time to do before with the hustle and bustle of going here, there, and everywhere with no end in sight. I will choose the most important activities I like and put the others on the shelf of my thoughts to revisit at a later date. My life will not be the same as before.

Today I will fill my Hummingbird feeders out so they can come back and visit regularly. Maybe I’ll soak in the tub while enjoying Smooth Jazz and a sip of something.

This will continue to be a quiet day for me. How about you?

Trust Me

Today I read the below devotional from Jesus Calling and it seemed appropriate for what has been going on all over the world.

I’m sharing it because there are a lot of people who are afraid. Their worlds have been turned upside down and they don’t know what to do because fear has overtaken them. Their lives as they know it may never be the same-what are they going to do.

Remember nothing happens that God doesn’t know about and what He sees going on He has an answer. Don’t let your heart fail you. Take courage that everything will work out in God.

We are Passing Over out of the old and into the new.

April 10

TRUST ME IN EVERY DETAIL OF YOUR LIFE.

Nothing is random in My kingdom. Everything that happens fits into a pattern for good, to those who love Me. Instead of trying to analyze the intricacies of the pattern, focus your energy on trusting Me and thanking Me at all times. Nothing is wasted when you walk close to Me. Even your mistakes and sins can be recycled into something good, through My transforming grace.

While you were still living in darkness, I began to shine the Light of My Presence into your sin-stained life. Finally, I lifted you up out of the mire into My marvelous Light. Having sacrificed My very Life for you, I can be trusted in every facet of your life.

Jeremiah 17:7; Romans 8:28; Psalm 40:2; 1 Peter 2:9

Shabbat Shalom!

No Reason – For A Reason

When I lay my head down on the pillow in bed a new adventure starts.

Why does it seem like I live two lives-one when I’m awake and one in my dreams . I turn into a person that’s more fun and exciting, more daring and free. The fearless one ready to take on the world. A crusader minus the cape. No Reason!

Why can I take on the world and solve its pressing problems by night? But I can’t solve a simple puzzle by light.

No Reason! No Reason! No Reason!

Why is my future bright in the night but dim in the light? I don’t have to fuss, cuss or fight in the night. Everything is laid out just right.

Maybe it’s a reprieve from the light when everything seems to be going wrong – not in the dark but in the light. For No Reason!

I’ll just continue to live my lives – one by day and one by night. Striving to be all I can be. Whether asleep or awake in the day or the night.

Let me come together and Be!

For A Reason!