The pandemic situation we are surrounded by has taken my prayer life to a higher dimension than ever before.
On the way to work I was praying for churches and church leaders when all of a sudden I saw mega churches and their leaders (no one in particular) and then heard the following scripture: Luke 12:16-21. The most earthshaking to me was verse 21. “This is how it will be with whoever stores up things for themselves but is not rich toward God”. (NIV) Are the mega churches built for God or the man building them? I’m not saying mega churches are wrong but what is the motive behind them.
Maybe during this time of shutting in we all can reassess our relationship with the Lord and have a willingness to repent and change what he reveals to us so we can be who he created us to be – a fierce army – when this is over.
Our work is not done but in a sense it’s just beginning. There’s a lot of afraid people in the world – saved and unsaved alike that need a reassuring word from God. That’s what God’s army is here to do – to share the truth.
I Want To Be More Than Just Me
I want to be a writer. I believe I would be a good one. Distractions come my way. Ideas that are deposited in me are snuffed out. My memory fails so I don’t remember the snippets that would make for a great story. My recorder is forgotten and the creative flow is dammed up. No matter what tries to stop me I will put words on paper until I accomplish what I set out to do.
I want to be an artist. My paintings are beautiful. Many have said so. Full of color and life that draws you in to become a part of the community. Then appears an old nemesis fear slithering in with the same old plan to steal, kill and destroy. For some strange reason I succumb to those old outdated tricks. All my creativity comes to a halt. I’m shut down and can’t deliver. I’m telling that voice to shut up and I’m arming myself with my paint brush, paint and canvas and going to war.
I want to be a musician. Music was built in me before I was born. It’s always playing in my ear. Sometimes songs I’ve heard. Other times songs that are being birthed. There are also personal songs that are between me and my Lord. When music starts dancing fills in my feet. Melodies circle me. How do I capture them and express them? I lift my voice and sing. I’ll dance with the broom while sweeping my floors. I’ll be the best pianist that ever tickled the ivory keys.
My goal is to conquer the fleeting moments of creativity and let the masterpieces flow from my being. I will express the ideas that come forth from the Throne room at the time they are to be released. I believe I can and I will.
I want to be more than just me. This is me!
Is there anything that is preventing the creativity in you from coming forth?
Speak, speaks speak to the people
Until I give you no more words
I’m here to protect and guide you
But you’re not looking at me
You have your eyes on man
What power and authority does he have
None compared to me
I have all authority
Promises, promises – Hogwash!
Man couldn’t keep a promise
If his life depended did on it
Lies, lies, lies that’s what I hear
Coming from every direction
But you can’t hear
Because you don’t want to hear
Is death what you want
I’ll give you death
If not open yours eyes to see what I see
If you say no then I’ll let you be
And make sure you have what you want
The lies that don’t come from me
There comes a day in just about everyone’s life when they need to distance themselves from people they let in. Through trial and error, heartache and pain they realize the relationship is not working no matter what they do.
Every once in a while I create an Emmanism, which is a little saying or word of wisdom. It may even turn into mini advice which probably no one takes it seriously. Twenty-two hours ago I wrote an Emmanism and want to share it.
Sometimes you have to tell someone they are a ‘WAS’ in your life. #Emmanism
A nice way to tell them bye, bye . . . maybe, maybe not.
I sat there overwhelmed with fear
Badgering and bickering was all I could hear.
Silence pursued me to where
I was overtaken
By the oil of your presence flowing over me
That very oil was setting me free
Being poured as from a pitcher
In a steady stream
Flowing fast and furious
Like it would never end
I found peace in the flow
How, I did not know
Overwhelmed and overtaken
To a place I’ve never known.
I came across a pamphlet that I had a while ago and decided to reread it. The title is Portrait of a Godly Woman by Anthony T. Evans, Th.D.
Dr. Evans dissects the Proverbs 31 woman. While dissecting the Proverbs 31 woman he gives men clues about choosing their bride. Very informative pamphlet.
After finishing the pamphlet I sat meditating on the nuggets. The Lord reminded me of a time in the past that He asked me if a guy I was hanging out with marriage material. I thought about it and came to the conclusion that he wasn’t because all of his baggage I didn’t want to be entangle with that would cause me more misery than I wanted. So I walked away.
Yesterday I got a clearer revelation of why the Lord asked me that question. It wasn’t just for that relationship but for every time I got involved with a guy that could go further than friendship. The question that should have been in the front of my mind was “is he marriage material”? That doesn’t mean I was looking to marry every guy I went out with. It was so I wouldn’t waste precious time on someone I couldn’t see myself marrying thus possibly missing the right one.
I believe this is not only for women but men also, although I think men do this in some fashion. I’m not saying this has to be the way you do things or cut off friends you like to hang out with because at the end of the day you get to choose who and how you date. But it is something to think about if you don’t want to waste unnecessary time.
For quite a while I looked in the mirror and I didn’t see a person I was familiar with. I thought there is something wrong but couldn’t figure it out. I didn’t like my hair but didn’t know what to do with it. Some mornings I changed clothes two or more times before I settled on a compromise so I could make it to work on time.
Last week I had my hair transformed that I am satisfied with. I purchased a classy dress that made me see myself in a different way. I got a revelation that I had to make some changes so I can see myself like God sees me. I’m not saying a new hair style or new clothes really matter but I believe the success God wants me to have will have a new look that is different than what I’m use to. So along with the new outward look I’m also looking inward so I can see me better.
See me in a different light
Beautiful, strong, full of might
Many talents to be revealed
Starting with my love for you
Breaking open what is sealed