I Want To Be More Than Just Me

I Want To Be More Than Just Me

I want to be a writer. I believe I would be a good one. Distractions come my way.  Ideas that are deposited in me are snuffed out. My memory fails  so I don’t remember the snippets that would make for a great story. My recorder is forgotten and the creative flow is dammed up. No matter what tries to stop me I will put words on paper until I accomplish what I set out to do.

I want to be an artist. My paintings are beautiful. Many have said so. Full of color and life that draws you in to become a part of the community. Then appears an old nemesis fear slithering in with the same old plan to steal, kill and destroy. For some strange reason I succumb to those old outdated tricks. All my creativity comes to a halt. I’m shut down and can’t deliver. I’m telling that voice to shut up and I’m arming myself with my paint brush, paint and canvas and going to war.

I want to be a musician. Music was built in me before I was born. It’s always playing in my ear. Sometimes songs I’ve heard. Other times songs that are being birthed. There are also personal songs that are between me and my Lord. When music starts dancing fills in my feet. Melodies circle me. How do I capture them and express them? I lift my voice and sing. I’ll dance with the broom while sweeping my floors. I’ll be the best pianist that ever tickled the ivory keys.

My goal is to conquer the fleeting moments of creativity and let the masterpieces flow from my being. I will express the ideas that come forth from the Throne room at the time they are to be released. I believe I can and I will.

I want to be more than just me. This is me!

Is there anything that is preventing the creativity in you from coming forth?

Speak

Speak, speaks speak to the people

Until I give you no more words

I’m here to protect and guide you

But you’re not looking at me

You have your eyes on man

What power and authority does he have

None compared to me

I have all authority

Promises, promises – Hogwash!

Man couldn’t keep a promise

If his life depended did on it

Lies, lies, lies that’s what I hear

Coming from every direction

But you can’t hear

Because you don’t want to hear

Is death what you want

I’ll give you death

If not open yours eyes to see what I see

If you say no then I’ll let you be

And make sure you have what you want

The lies that don’t come from me

                                            Jeremiah 13

#Emmanism

There comes a day in just about everyone’s life when they need to distance themselves from people they let in. Through trial and error, heartache and pain they realize the relationship is not working no matter what they do.

Every once in a while I create an Emmanism, which is a little saying or word of wisdom. It may even turn into mini advice which probably no one takes it seriously. Twenty-two hours ago I wrote an Emmanism and want to share it.

Sometimes you have to tell someone they are a ‘WAS’ in your life. #Emmanism

A nice way to tell them bye, bye . . . maybe, maybe not.

Overwhelmed and Overtaken

I sat there overwhelmed with fear
Badgering and bickering was all I could hear.
Silence pursued me to where
I was overtaken
By the oil of your presence flowing over me
That very oil was setting me free
Being poured as from a pitcher
In a steady stream
Flowing fast and furious
Like it would never end
I found peace in the flow
How, I did not know
Overwhelmed and overtaken
To a place I’ve never known.

Picking with a Purpose

I came across a pamphlet that I had a while ago and decided to reread it. The title is Portrait of a Godly Woman by Anthony T. Evans, Th.D.

Dr. Evans dissects the Proverbs 31 woman. While dissecting the Proverbs 31 woman he gives men clues about choosing their bride. Very informative pamphlet.

After finishing the pamphlet I sat meditating on the nuggets. The Lord reminded me of a time in the past that He asked me if a guy I was hanging out with marriage material. I thought about it and came to the conclusion that he wasn’t because all of his baggage I didn’t want to be entangle with that would cause me more misery than I wanted. So I walked away.

Yesterday I got a clearer revelation of why the Lord asked me that question. It wasn’t just for that relationship but for every time I got involved with a guy that could go further than friendship. The question that should have been in the front of my mind was “is he marriage material”? That doesn’t mean I was looking to marry every guy I went out with. It was so I wouldn’t waste precious time on someone I couldn’t see myself marrying thus possibly missing the right one.

I believe this is not only for women but men also, although I think men do this in some fashion.  I’m not saying this has to be the way you do things or cut off friends you like to hang out with because at the end of the day you get to choose who and how you date. But it is something to think about if you don’t want to waste unnecessary time.

Happy dating.

See Me

For quite a while I looked in the mirror and I didn’t see a person I was familiar with. I thought there is something wrong but couldn’t figure it out. I didn’t like my hair but didn’t know what to do with it. Some mornings I changed clothes two or more times before I settled on a compromise so I could make it to work on time.

Last week I had my hair transformed that I am satisfied with. I purchased a classy dress that made me see myself in a different way. I got a revelation that I had to make some changes so I can see myself like God sees me. I’m not saying a new hair style or new clothes really matter but I believe the success God wants me to have will have a new look that is different than what I’m use to. So along with the new outward look I’m also looking inward so I can see me better.

See me in a different light

Beautiful, strong, full of might

Many talents to be revealed

Starting with my love for you

Breaking open what is sealed

The Little Things

I wrote this in 2016 one day when I was meditating on my relationship with the Lord. I’ve probably posted it but I felt I should post it again. The little things that go on between me and Him makes my life worth while because He is always there for me to keep me going in the right direction-even when my flesh wants to take me the wrong way. I’m forever grateful to my Lord for all He does for me.

The little things no one can see

The little things between you and me

The little things you point out

Only for you and me to see

You guide me to and fro

Whisper in my ear

Only for me to know

When to stay and where to go

The little things 

Mean more each day

The little things that you say

Keeping me straight so I won’t stray

The little things I see and hear

Let me know you love me

Each and every day

You guide me along my way

The little things no one can see

The little things between you and me

The little things, the way you lead

Only for you and me to see