Watched

There is more to each of us than the color of our skin, how we wear our hair and our style of dress. Those things don’t reveal the real person. Sometimes we get caught up and come into agreement with people who want to put us down because we don’t measure up to their standards. Then for some reason; probably because we don’t think much of ourselves; we try to change to get the approval of the very people who put us down. At the end of the day they don’t have a heaven or hell to send us to.

So arise people who have been abused and misused. Shake off the filthy slime that has been smeared all over you. Step into the position that has been created and waiting for you. Love yourself even when you think no one else does.

I’ve watched and watched

But did not see

Too many people that looked like me

Not talking about beauty

Or ethnicity

But wisdom, insight and maturity

He Hit Me But I Forgot

Watching a television program triggered an incident that happened to me many years ago.

On the show a woman’s boyfriend beat her. The police arrived, drew her gun and told him to stop. The guy grabbed a butcher knife and headed toward her to do her harm. When he wouldn’t stop she shot him. The beaten woman screamed at the officer for shooting the man who beat her.

All of a sudden I had a flash back. I remembered when I was dating the young man I would eventually marry. One evening we were on a date and he slapped me. I can’t recall the reason but I forgave him and forgot about it. And it didn’t happen again…for a while.

A couple of years later that demon reared its ugly head again. The attack came as a surprise to me because it was unexpected. That was the first of many altercations. Much heartache. Much pain.

He hit me before marriage but I forgot until years later after the divorce. If I’d remembered I never would have married him. In the midst of that mess The Lord was with me and delivered me. For that I am thankful.

Have you experienced abuse?