Her Last Breath

She clawed her way upon his chest

The pain that wracked her body stole her rest

Medication dulled the pain but never completely took it away

In and out of consciousness, delirious to her surroundings

In her weakness she pulled on his strength 

Because she had none of her own

Tears streaming down his cheeks, through his beard, onto her hair

Thoughts of losing the love of his life was more than he could bear

I have to be strong for her no matter what the outcome is

Lord give us a miracle and let this nightmare end

Her breathing was so shallow he checked to see

If she was still with him or moved on to eternity

Pulling her closer to him to breathe for her once more

A flashback of the years gone by

When everything was great

The memories will be tucked away

In the heart that beats for her

My heart will always beat for you

With every breath I take

Your smile, the twinkle in your eyes 

Our wonderful life together 

Can never be replaced

As she drew her last breath

He whispered in her ear

I’ll always love you

Forever

#Emmanism

There comes a day in just about everyone’s life when they need to distance themselves from people they let in. Through trial and error, heartache and pain they realize the relationship is not working no matter what they do.

Every once in a while I create an Emmanism, which is a little saying or word of wisdom. It may even turn into mini advice which probably no one takes it seriously. Twenty-two hours ago I wrote an Emmanism and want to share it.

Sometimes you have to tell someone they are a ‘WAS’ in your life. #Emmanism

A nice way to tell them bye, bye . . . maybe, maybe not.

Overwhelmed and Overtaken

I sat there overwhelmed with fear
Badgering and bickering was all I could hear.
Silence pursued me to where
I was overtaken
By the oil of your presence flowing over me
That very oil was setting me free
Being poured as from a pitcher
In a steady stream
Flowing fast and furious
Like it would never end
I found peace in the flow
How, I did not know
Overwhelmed and overtaken
To a place I’ve never known.

Picking with a Purpose

I came across a pamphlet that I had a while ago and decided to reread it. The title is Portrait of a Godly Woman by Anthony T. Evans, Th.D.

Dr. Evans dissects the Proverbs 31 woman. While dissecting the Proverbs 31 woman he gives men clues about choosing their bride. Very informative pamphlet.

After finishing the pamphlet I sat meditating on the nuggets. The Lord reminded me of a time in the past that He asked me if a guy I was hanging out with marriage material. I thought about it and came to the conclusion that he wasn’t because all of his baggage I didn’t want to be entangle with that would cause me more misery than I wanted. So I walked away.

Yesterday I got a clearer revelation of why the Lord asked me that question. It wasn’t just for that relationship but for every time I got involved with a guy that could go further than friendship. The question that should have been in the front of my mind was “is he marriage material”? That doesn’t mean I was looking to marry every guy I went out with. It was so I wouldn’t waste precious time on someone I couldn’t see myself marrying thus possibly missing the right one.

I believe this is not only for women but men also, although I think men do this in some fashion.  I’m not saying this has to be the way you do things or cut off friends you like to hang out with because at the end of the day you get to choose who and how you date. But it is something to think about if you don’t want to waste unnecessary time.

Happy dating.

Is It Possible

Is it possible to love without limits

Is it possible to forgive no matter who’s at fault

Can love be allowed to flood your very being

While joy is your strength as love overflows

Let down all defense and open your heart

Let unconditional love do its part

Don’t lose sight of me

I’m here right where I’ll always be

So you can reach out and touch me,

Caress and hold me

Let the comfort flow that we each enjoy

Love me like you mean it

Don’t treat me like your toy.

Something you can pull out today

And when you’re tired of me you put me away

If that’s what you want to do

I’ll turn and walk away from you.

Detached

There comes a time in our lives that we are tempted by something that can change our lives in a way we can never imagine. In some circumstances we can have what I’m going to call a flesh attack. In case you don’t know that is when your flesh demands satisfaction. In that state we forget about the consequences or we just don’t care. A free for all is not necessarily free at all. Someone is going to pay be it one or both involved.

Her future had taken a sudden turn

The flesh got in the way

Never again would she be

The carefree teen she was yesterday

A decision that never crossed her mind

Had been made for her

The secret fun she enjoyed

Had gone a bit too far

She wondered as tears

Streamed down her face

How could this happen to me

No more will life be carefree

When she shared the news with him

He turned and walked away

Hadn’t seen or heard from him

Since that dreaded day

The unexpected bundle of joy

Had made his way

The pain and push

Now complete

Is here to stay

Where is the joy that abounds

Blank face and stony heart

Cold eyes starring into space

No connection to be found

Detached from the start

Wings of New Life

Once I heard someone tell what an eagle goes through when they are being transformed. It’s seems like they are being remodeled; being taken down to the studs. Just like a house being remodeled they look like a mess. I wonder if they even know what they shall be when it is all done. When their remodel is complete they get to test their new wings. I’m sure they have better wings, more powerful wings that will help them soar higher to the highest heights. I’m going to soar as high as I can go to heights unknown to me on a new path with my wings of new life.

The day has come to test my wings

To fly away and begin again

A new adventure in my life

Where I’ve not been before

Sometimes scary

 I maintain control 

Up and down

All around

With my wings I soar

Peering through keen eyes 

Looking for my place

Where I am to be

To start anew

Can’t return to the place of old 

It was temporary 

Has grown cold 

I don’t fit there anymore 

Taking a deep breath and letting go

Using my wings of new life