Mary closed her Bible, finishing her devotions and quiet time.
An unexpected thought came to her.
What could that mean, she pondered. OH! She got a revelation. What will I bring to the marriage. After careful thought she grabbed her journal and began jotting down her list.
- My relationship with Jesus will cause me to be the wife my husband needs
- I will continually cover him with prayer
- Be a Proverbs 31 woman
- I will love, honor, support and adore him
- I will accept him for who God made him to be, not into my Mr. Perfect
Whew, enough for right now, Mary thought. What was all that about? I’ve wanted another try at marriage but I’ve never considered what I’d bring to the marriage–just what I wanted for the wedding.
I’ll give this more attention later. I’ve got plenty time to finish the list.
Today I feel like I have a life and I matter. Most days I just exist, nothing about me counts. Some days I feel I’m an asset but there are times I’m just bumbling through. At the end of the day I’m alone.
I’m in a dark and dreary place where the shroud of darkness covers everything round about. Where is the penetrating light that dispels the deep black darkness? Where are the Angels that grab the edges of the dark covering and snap it to attention and command it to leave? Why is my mouth shut up and the words locked away that will burst me forth from the captivity of this dark and dreary place—the place where I’m taunted by the recorder of my life. All you know how to do is make a mess of things. You can’t do anything right. You’re fat and ugly. You’ll never amount to anything. On and on and on then the big one that stabs me in the heart and takes my breath away—I wish you were never born—I wish you were dead. I wish I was dead! How can I have a present and a future with those nagging, mocking voices I hear? Where can I go; what can I do to be rid of them?
A still small voice is whispering loudly at me. It’s softly but boldly beckoning “come hither and see”. I have a way to set you free. As I fight to make my way back from the deep, dark hole there is light at the end that is a blinding flash of light. The darkness is running with no place to hide. The light has defeated it; a new day’s arrived. The small voice breaks through with declarations and decrees. The negative word curses no longer torment me.
I now hear a symphony of cheers. You’re fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you (Philippians 4:13). I know the plan I have for you (Jeremiah 29:11). There’s Angel assistants sent to dispel the darkness so I can see the new day. The glory of the Lord has come to say I love you with an everlasting love.
Have you ever felt you were held captive and alone in a dark dreary place?
You need to expand. Expand what you think, see and believe. I didn’t bring you here to think, see and believe in a small way. By continuing that way you are limiting me. I am a limitless God. You are trying to fit me in a box that I don’t fit in. I can’t be boxed. By not changing and submitting to where I want to take you, you are hurting yourself. With your fear and unbelief I can’t increase you and take you to the next step in your purpose and destiny. You have made a big step by moving from Ohio to Texas but as I told you before, I’m God in Texas like I’m God in Ohio.
As you move around Texas you see how big and expansive everything is. I’m bigger and more expansive than what you see. When you look down a road, you only see so far but the road continues on–I’m bigger and reach farther than that.
Moving was a small thing compared to what I have planned for you. Increase your expectation of me. Remember whatever you think, I’m greater than that. Whatever you see, I’m more than that. Get excited, rejoice and let no one discourage you. Look to me and look for me in your everyday activities.
Don’t think you are limited to Texas. Just like I brought you to Texas time and again, I plan to take you to other places. Some will be for my purpose and others will be for your pleasure. What I have put in you will not lay dormant, but will be used to free the captives. Don’t be concerned about anything in your life. I have that already taken care of.
Trust me and watch. You won’t be disappointed.