Detached

There comes a time in our lives that we are tempted by something that can change our lives in a way we can never imagine. In some circumstances we can have what I’m going to call a flesh attack. In case you don’t know that is when your flesh demands satisfaction. In that state we forget about the consequences or we just don’t care. A free for all is not necessarily free at all. Someone is going to pay be it one or both involved.

Her future had taken a sudden turn

The flesh got in the way

Never again would she be

The carefree teen she was yesterday

A decision that never crossed her mind

Had been made for her

The secret fun she enjoyed

Had gone a bit too far

She wondered as tears

Streamed down her face

How could this happen to me

No more will life be carefree

When she shared the news with him

He turned and walked away

Hadn’t seen or heard from him

Since that dreaded day

The unexpected bundle of joy

Had made his way

The pain and push

Now complete

Is here to stay

Where is the joy that abounds

Blank face and stony heart

Cold eyes starring into space

No connection to be found

Detached from the start

Facing A Fear

This coming weekend I’m taking a CHL class. Before taking the class I needed to go to the range and practice the targets.

I should have completed the class a while ago but fear stood in the way because someone tried to take my life with the very thing I’m going to get a license for-a gun.

A friend was supposed to go with me to the range but for reasons unknown to me he didn’t show. After sitting in the parking lot for fifty-five minutes I had to leave for another appointment I couldn’t miss so I headed out.

Now comes the dilemma-when can I get back to the range to practice before the class this weekend. After my appointment was over I googled Eagles and found they were open until 9 pm. I prayed and enlisted God’s guidance and made my way back there again. I had been there before but never alone so I was nervous. I was met with friendly faces who were eager to help me get registered and a nice gentleman who attended to my needs on the inside.

The biggest thing that unnerved me was the sound of the guns firing. I’d jump every time I heard someone shoot but I stood against the fear I felt until it left. Every time I pulled the trigger I closed my eyes and I couldn’t tell if I hit the target or not. After becoming aware of what I was doing I had to make myself keep my eyes open. By that time I’d fired fifty rounds and it was time to go. While practicing I only jammed the gun twice. The nice man got me out of those jams.

All year things from my past have been popping up for me to deal with. So now was the time for my fear about my life almost being taken from me to be absolved. Today no more fear concerning that lives here. That journey was mine alone and no one else could help me.

I will attend the class, pass the test and get my license.

#atozchallenge -Peter’s Fight

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         Peter’s Fight

Unaware of the fight that was ahead Peter kept moving forward on

A course that could bring misery and dread.

Especially because he wasn’t prepared

He kept wandering here and there in great despair

Although pretending not to have a worry or care

Peter took a deep breath and slowly released

All the distraction around him that disturbed his peace

He stood still and waited till all was calm

Until he was sure which way to go

After all the confusion that turned him around

Peter got settled on firm ground

He opened his eyes and saw a new way

To win the fight that caused his delay#

atozchallenge – Indecisive

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If you’re indecisive, you have a hard time making decisions. When you finally do make a decision, you may not be confident about it, or you might change your mind.
Another definition for indecisive is not definitely settling something.

Being indecisive is a bad place to be. It is rooted in fear. Fear comes in all shapes, sizes and surprises.

I’ve been there more times than I care to count. One would think by now I’d know better. I seem to be caught by surprise every time. But something has to change.

The next time I have a decision to make I’m going to make it and not vacillate back and forth and worry about missing out on any thing.

My thought is if I make the right decision I won’t miss out on anything.

No more indecisive days, weeks, months and years for me.

 

#atozchallenge -E-mails, E-mails and More E-mails

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It is a shame a person that doesn’t own a business has five different email addresses. Out of the five only three get special attention. The other two are checked every once in a while.

Most of these sixteen thousand plus emails haven’t been read and need to be deleted. Not sure why I let them hang around. I don’t know how I started receiving some of them, especially ones I never heard of.

I’m beginning to think I need some lessons to help me better manage these out of control emails that are trying to overtake me.

A thought just came to me. I’ll delete around fifty every day and unsubscribe the ones I have no interest in. Bottom line—I need to stop dragging my feet.

I’m looking forward to E-mails, E-mails, Less E-mails.

Karma Chameleon I

After I responded to what I thought was today’s  daily prompt I went back to find that this prompt was from April 18, 2015 and was connected to my prompt for today. Can’t remember if I wrote about it then but here it is now.

This just in: let’s pretend that science has proven that karma is a thing. Your words and actions will influence what happens to you in the future. How (if at all) will you change your ways?

Proverbs 18:21 in The Message (MSG) Bible says:

Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit-you chose.

Science does nothing but prove the Bible is correct-as if it needed to be proven.

I keep in mind that the words I speak can kill or give life to me or someone I speak to or about. With that in mind I choose my words carefully. If I can’t say something good I won’t say anything at all. I may wonder why someone does or say a thing. But at the end of the day only God knows the true intent of the heart which so often makes the lips speak.

Remember don’t commit suicide or kill anyone with what passes through your lips today.